What are we truly here for?
We work
we create
we bond
we multiply
we survive
I try to understand the sadness in me
but can’t figure out why
I am giving
nurturing
caring
loving
smart
and fun
I have a wife who really loves me
and fights for me
and stands beside me
Yet I cry
I have debt and still no job of my own
I have children that choose not to talk to me
friends that see me when it’s convenient
as everyone is so busy
but busy doing what?
Yet I cry
Is it a fear of getting old
or realizing I can’t do the things I used to
or feel the way I used to feel about life?
Is it all based on work
interacting with people who are mean and selfish
people opposite of me
or am I just too sensitive?
Why can’t I say leave it be?
Or shrug my shoulders and say your opinion means nothing to me?
But yet I cry
I have to find a way to smile again
I have to stop living on the clock
I have to stop crying
© Alexander J. Alvarez 2019
